i would have to say that my new best bud is the coolest ive ever encountered. what a kindred spirit i have aquianted myself with. HOT DANG IT!!!
lu is the coolest thing ive ever had the oppertunity to befreind.

all of my last freinds havent been this cool and lu is so supportive sensitive interesting and she is helpful. she wants to help me. its not like she needs to because she's my friend but becuse she knows i need help with shit and that im stressed out with it.
my boyfriend is the shit too. these past couple of months have shown me that good people really exist. right when i started to believe that all people were fake the real people showed up at my front door. all i had to do was wake up....

Current Location: work
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: cindy lauper

one thing that i would have to say that causes me to be irate is the fact the people lack empathy.workin suck, but no one cares to ask why. why does work suck for me or you. people often say that things suck in general. i think the way you can tell from a genuin person who cares about you is when they ask you why? and actually mean it. i could say my job sucks and someone could say well mine is worse thats not being sympathetic thats being an ignorant asshole carpet muncher.
the one thing i learned is,,, ask questions - that shows your listening- listen to people- that shows you care - and care - because that shows your human...

i am so done with these fake people. and thanks to the real ones that stand out like a sore thumb i have an easier time distinguishing between.

fuck yeah!!

Well well well, this is number one and ya' all should be so pleased that I finally have a journal.

I've got a lot of things going on right now. I feel like Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde, battling my past with the one I want to be with forever.
Last night my boyfriend and I were exchanging words late last night when I noticed that my behavior has been unexceptable. Due to the fact that I was diagnosed in June with depression and ADHD. Im noticing that me with out the meds suck and the ones I love and adore are feeling the reprecutions of such.
Interupting my lover at every thought he has, telling him he would be an asshole if I didnt change the station back to what he wants.
Out of three weeks of being with him I have shared my complete history.
Things with my mom which was CH-TT-Y. The reasoning behind why I went to get looked at by a psyche doc. and a MD about depression and PTSD was so that I would never turn out like my mother.
Unfortunately the words that were uttered from my un-healthy state of mind were merely from her lips.
I love my friends and I love steven. shit really hit the fan when I left his front to go home. I was acting like the very person I despise more than anything else in life.

ehh...

Current Mood: crushed