Well well well, this is number one and ya' all should be so pleased that I finally have a journal.

I've got a lot of things going on right now. I feel like Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde, battling my past with the one I want to be with forever.
Last night my boyfriend and I were exchanging words late last night when I noticed that my behavior has been unexceptable. Due to the fact that I was diagnosed in June with depression and ADHD. Im noticing that me with out the meds suck and the ones I love and adore are feeling the reprecutions of such.
Interupting my lover at every thought he has, telling him he would be an asshole if I didnt change the station back to what he wants.
Out of three weeks of being with him I have shared my complete history.
Things with my mom which was CH-TT-Y. The reasoning behind why I went to get looked at by a psyche doc. and a MD about depression and PTSD was so that I would never turn out like my mother.
Unfortunately the words that were uttered from my un-healthy state of mind were merely from her lips.
I love my friends and I love steven. shit really hit the fan when I left his front to go home. I was acting like the very person I despise more than anything else in life.

ehh...

Current Mood: crushed